Tag Archives: joy

Clean up yuck duty!

My baby turned two this month and he is a gorgeous child (hey I am his mother), and all that comes with a two year old has now emerged. That does sound ominous. He is now insisting that he does everything on his own and has no problem saying the word “No”. So he gets food and drink everywhere and I mean absolutely everywhere.

He is climbing, well everything. And with that comes the inevitable falling over. I must admit he hardly ever cries, he just keeps getting up and soldiering on. He has a wonderful personality and is always on the move. He certainly knows how to tire people out.

Today he is unwell, a high fever set in yesterday and he has thrown up a few times since then. So apart from being ‘nurse mummy’ and giving lots of kisses and cuddles, I am also administering medicine, lots of water and on clean up yuck duty. 🙂

I believe it is due to teething. His back molars are coming in and this can be quite painful at times. He may also have a slight cold. It is amazing how young children can be ill one moment and recover so quickly the next. This is my third child and so I am not panicking about the high temperature, unless it gets out of hand. He is handling things quite well and is still smiling.

He brings me no end of happiness and joy. I love the role of being a mother. However, I know that does not define me. It is only a part of who I am. An extremely important and loving part of me. It does tend to take over and I then have to put other areas of my life on hold. I do not regret this as children grow up so fast. I stayed home from work today to care for him. My family is my priority and keeping a job to take care of him is a priority also. So it is difficult at times to juggle all of it. My life is in a constant state of change, one moment of experience moves into another and I have to roll with it. So being flexible is a great tool to have. Patience is a virtue. So they say.

I want my children to know that they are loved and have a safe place to call home. I am grateful that I can provide that. I am so grateful that we are all healthy, even if we get ill and that we have food on the table and a roof over our heads. It is more than many people get to see.

Sending out love, light and healing to you all. Especially sending out loving thoughts to those in need right now.


It has nothing to do with you

I have been putting a lot of thought into how I am reacting to others in my life. I know that I cannot change how people behave, I can only change how I react to their behaviour. I fear that I have been living a little like a hermit, kind of trying to avoid other peoples dramas. I have been very happy with the peacefulness. There are some people that you should just avoid entirely. Those that go out of their way to make you feel bad. It is as if they need to do it to make themselves feel better. It has nothing to do with you. Thank goodness.

I am listening to my children laugh and having fun around me and I am content. Even though it is 11.30pm and I have to work tomorrow. I attended a belated easter lunch today with all the family and it was wonderful watching my two year old search for easter treats in the garden. It was such a lovely day and we all came home with a food coma.

I have been getting so much joy from my little one lately. He is nearly two years old and it is funny to see him trying to push through all the boundaries to test the limits. It is to be expected and I have so much more patience for him than I ever did with the older two. Older and wiser (maybe) and so much less anxiety the second time around. I am relaxed and it shows. My son is so laid back and happy. He is a joy to be around. He sleeps all night and eats well. Now just to get him toilet trained. 🙂

I wouldn’t have it any other way

I have been absent from the blogesphere for a while. I have been dealing with a personal crisis that has subsided for now anyway. One thing I have noticed is how life goes on – no matter what is happening around you. I still had to look after the family. I still had to work two jobs. I had to contend with the everyday running of the household. I had to put up a front to my children as I did not want to worry them. I lost sleep. I became ill as I was run down. But life still had to go on. How many of us do this everyday?  It helped knowing that my problems were not so bad and that there are others dealing with much more than I – this put things into perspective. It helped to know that this will pass and things will get better. I know that. Meditation has become all the more important as I contend with a crook neck due to the stress. I have been trying to focus on the children and the joy that they can bring. I have been spending time with my family and friends. But something had to give and that was my writing. It is very difficult to get into the right head space to be creative when you are feeling overwhelmed with life. I am back. How I miss using my creative outlet. It feels like I have lost a part of me when I am away.

My little boy is nearly two and I have been really enjoying watching him learn to speak. He certainly knows how to make himself understood even if he doesn’t know all the words yet 🙂 My eldest is learning how to drive – what fun that is. The kids are on school holidays so there goes any assemblance of routine for two weeks 🙂 I am just so happy that we are all together, happy and healthy. What more can I ask for. I am so grateful. My house is certainly lived in and life is not perfect – I wouldn’t have it any other way. Sending out love and light to everyone.

Everything else is just gravy

My life has been full of contradictions lately. From day to day, even from hour to hour, it has been a curious mix of good and bad. I know that life has a way of doing that. You make choices and you have to live with the consequences of your actions. I also know stuff happens and that is just the way that it is. Sometimes you can have a feeling of such elation and then be plunged into utter despair, such is life. I am very grateful for the life I have, it is full of family and love. I have a roof over my head and food in the cupboard, which is more than most. My children keep me grounded and as long as they are healthy and happy, then everything else is just gravy.

There has been plenty of self talk. When I feel myself plunging into my old negative ways of self doubt, I give myself a kick in the seat of the pants and desist. I am a good person, I am not my past and I am not the person others make me out to be. I have broken that old record and that recording no longer controls me. I have had a very turbulent three years and it is all about to come to an end and I am ecstatic at that prospect. 🙂

Something big is coming and my life will never be the same. It is going to be very positive. I believe that. I am making that choice.

For anyone feeling like there is no end, that all is dark and there is no way out, take heart. Nothing ever stays the same. Focus on bringing joy to others then joy will come to you. Sending out love, light and healing to all.


Hey, it has to start somewhere, why not at home?

I have had a very busy week, I think I am forgetting what it is like to relax and have some fun 🙂 However, I did make some time to watch a house full of kids whoop and holler through a game of nerf wars. For those of you unfamiliar with this, it is a game of ambush using plastic childrens toys that shoot foam darts. And these “children” are all over 17 years of age. It was hilarious.

I have been putting some thought into my recently published book and organising some book signings and I am investigating what it would be like to attend a huge mind, body and spirit festival in Melbourne in June 2014. All new to me. I am still feeling my way.

The second draft of my script has been slow going. I think purely because it is all new to me also and I have no one to be a sounding board. It is very interesting though. A thoroughly different format for me to get my head around. I love a challenge. 🙂

My baby has now begun to add to his vocabulary of words. The latest are: yes and no and he is sounding out everyone’s names. It is so cute to watch his little mind tick over. You can almost hear the gears grinding in there. 🙂

There is something to be said for delegation. Especially when you have such a large workload in front of you. I have decided to seek the services of an arts student to help me complete my drawings for my Tarot cards. I have hand drawn all 78 of the graphics myself, but I need someone to pretty them up and make them digital for printing. I would truly appreciate any suggestions here.

I have been sitting here tonight marking tests for my uni students. I have been reflecting on how much I enjoy teaching. I enjoy making the time for my own children. Their laughter fills my heart with joy. My house is what you would call lived in and comfortable. It is never spotless with so many children around. But I would like my memories to be about fun times and not how clean my house was.

I have come to realise that my ability to involve everyone in the day to day family time in my house is precious. Everyone feels valued, as if they belong to a whole. We all contribute to our little tribe. I would not have it any other way. Even simple things like chatting around the dinner table every night is so very important. In this day and age when everything is moving so fast and technology is ever present. Communication – face to face – is an art that must never be lost. We all need to practice our listening skills. We all have a right to be heard. Hey, it has to start somewhere, why not at home? Love and light to all.


My heart is full

It is amazing what you can fit into one day. Albeit my only day off. But as a mother you don’t get any time off 🙂 Dropped one child off to school, attended some appointments and then took my baby to swimming lessons. It is only his third one, but he is already so confident he wants to go off without me. It brings me so much joy to share this experience with him.  Then it was home for lunch and a nap – for the baby, not me! The little prince decided to remove his nappy and relieved himself all over his cot. Oh the joys of motherhood. Had to strip the bed and wash everything. Then two more appointments all with baby in tow. So many times that I had to pull the stroller out of the car and put it back in and the baby too. I am getting muscles on my muscles 🙂 Then off home to put dinner on.  Followed by bath time. Playing with blocks and chatting with my little boy before I put him to bed. One of the highlights of the day has been watching my little one come out with new words – the latest one has been the word “mess” which he is very good at making. I have also been dealing with some issues regarding the baby’s father, but I won’t bore you with that. I am sitting here at the end of the day and going over my busy day. This is my ‘me’ time. I am focusing on my breathing and doing some meditation. My writing also brings me joy. I am doing my best to notice the little things, the moments that make up your life. My life is one long series of moments. The days go by very quickly. I want to savour those moments. I want to share that joy with my family. And to you also. We see so much despair in this world, I believe that these little moments of joy are worth holding onto. I want to send love, light and healing out to all those people who need it tonight. My heart is full. Blessings.

A bit of compassion goes a long way

Ever have one of those days where everything seems to be going along swimmingly when BAM something just smacks you down (metaphorically speaking of course). You get upset, it becomes all consuming and you can’t think of anything else. I am talking about the stressful stuff that you can’t avoid. You just have to deal with it one way or another. We have all been there right. I have had one such day today. That is why I am still up and writing at 2am. I went to bed and tried to process things so I could eventually get to sleep as I have to work tomorrow….oops today! I just couldn’t do it. So I got up and I have ended up on the computer writing about how I feel. Firstly I am very angry which is really just frustration. I do not have any control over another person’s actions. Instead of losing it I am sitting here formulating a response. Not one that is based on emotion, but hopefully on fact and being logical (just like spock – live long and prosper).:) I am starting to feel better as I now have a plan. I will deal with each day as it comes and try not to be so hard on myself. A bit of compassion goes a long way. I can feel the old me coming back. Joyful. I can go back to bed now. 🙂 Blessings to you.