My baby turned two this month and he is a gorgeous child (hey I am his mother), and all that comes with a two year old has now emerged. That does sound ominous. He is now insisting that he does everything on his own and has no problem saying the word “No”. So he gets food and drink everywhere and I mean absolutely everywhere.
He is climbing, well everything. And with that comes the inevitable falling over. I must admit he hardly ever cries, he just keeps getting up and soldiering on. He has a wonderful personality and is always on the move. He certainly knows how to tire people out.
Today he is unwell, a high fever set in yesterday and he has thrown up a few times since then. So apart from being ‘nurse mummy’ and giving lots of kisses and cuddles, I am also administering medicine, lots of water and on clean up yuck duty. 🙂
I believe it is due to teething. His back molars are coming in and this can be quite painful at times. He may also have a slight cold. It is amazing how young children can be ill one moment and recover so quickly the next. This is my third child and so I am not panicking about the high temperature, unless it gets out of hand. He is handling things quite well and is still smiling.
He brings me no end of happiness and joy. I love the role of being a mother. However, I know that does not define me. It is only a part of who I am. An extremely important and loving part of me. It does tend to take over and I then have to put other areas of my life on hold. I do not regret this as children grow up so fast. I stayed home from work today to care for him. My family is my priority and keeping a job to take care of him is a priority also. So it is difficult at times to juggle all of it. My life is in a constant state of change, one moment of experience moves into another and I have to roll with it. So being flexible is a great tool to have. Patience is a virtue. So they say.
I want my children to know that they are loved and have a safe place to call home. I am grateful that I can provide that. I am so grateful that we are all healthy, even if we get ill and that we have food on the table and a roof over our heads. It is more than many people get to see.
Sending out love, light and healing to you all. Especially sending out loving thoughts to those in need right now.
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A thought struck me today – don’t you just love the English language. It didn’t actually strike me, but it certainly felt like it. Everything is temporary, everything is just borrowed. All we have is the here and now.
I make a point of not getting attached to material things. I learned that lesson when I was young. One night our family went out for New Year’s Eve and when we got home we found that our home had been ransacked. They not only robbed us but drank our alcohol, and touched everything in the house. They even went through my underwear drawer. It was a violation of my privacy and they took anything of value that we had at the time. It was a lesson learned. You can replace jewellery, but you cannot replace a loved one.
You cannot replace the relationships that you build up over a lifetime. Those memories are to be treasured when you are alive on this planet. We cannot take any material item with us, so what is the point of coveting them when you are here. Material items do not make you happy.
They say time is fleeting. Everyone thinks that they have all the time in world to fix things that aren’t right within their lives. But that is just a fallacy. Life is short. It is but a blip on the radar. Do you want your life to be lived or do you just wish to exist and wait for the inevitable? For in the end we all pass on. I want my children to know that they are loved. I want those close to me to know that my time on earth was not wasted. I want to make a difference. I want to touch people’s lives in a positive way. When the end is near, I do not want to look back on my life with regret. I want to be surrounded by those people that I have connected with. That connection is what is important. WE are all connected. Material things can never replace that. Love is everything.
I have been putting a lot of thought into how I am reacting to others in my life. I know that I cannot change how people behave, I can only change how I react to their behaviour. I fear that I have been living a little like a hermit, kind of trying to avoid other peoples dramas. I have been very happy with the peacefulness. There are some people that you should just avoid entirely. Those that go out of their way to make you feel bad. It is as if they need to do it to make themselves feel better. It has nothing to do with you. Thank goodness.
I am listening to my children laugh and having fun around me and I am content. Even though it is 11.30pm and I have to work tomorrow. I attended a belated easter lunch today with all the family and it was wonderful watching my two year old search for easter treats in the garden. It was such a lovely day and we all came home with a food coma.
I have been getting so much joy from my little one lately. He is nearly two years old and it is funny to see him trying to push through all the boundaries to test the limits. It is to be expected and I have so much more patience for him than I ever did with the older two. Older and wiser (maybe) and so much less anxiety the second time around. I am relaxed and it shows. My son is so laid back and happy. He is a joy to be around. He sleeps all night and eats well. Now just to get him toilet trained. 🙂
I have been absent from the blogesphere for a while. I have been dealing with a personal crisis that has subsided for now anyway. One thing I have noticed is how life goes on – no matter what is happening around you. I still had to look after the family. I still had to work two jobs. I had to contend with the everyday running of the household. I had to put up a front to my children as I did not want to worry them. I lost sleep. I became ill as I was run down. But life still had to go on. How many of us do this everyday? It helped knowing that my problems were not so bad and that there are others dealing with much more than I – this put things into perspective. It helped to know that this will pass and things will get better. I know that. Meditation has become all the more important as I contend with a crook neck due to the stress. I have been trying to focus on the children and the joy that they can bring. I have been spending time with my family and friends. But something had to give and that was my writing. It is very difficult to get into the right head space to be creative when you are feeling overwhelmed with life. I am back. How I miss using my creative outlet. It feels like I have lost a part of me when I am away.
My little boy is nearly two and I have been really enjoying watching him learn to speak. He certainly knows how to make himself understood even if he doesn’t know all the words yet 🙂 My eldest is learning how to drive – what fun that is. The kids are on school holidays so there goes any assemblance of routine for two weeks 🙂 I am just so happy that we are all together, happy and healthy. What more can I ask for. I am so grateful. My house is certainly lived in and life is not perfect – I wouldn’t have it any other way. Sending out love and light to everyone.
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I have had a very busy week, I think I am forgetting what it is like to relax and have some fun 🙂 However, I did make some time to watch a house full of kids whoop and holler through a game of nerf wars. For those of you unfamiliar with this, it is a game of ambush using plastic childrens toys that shoot foam darts. And these “children” are all over 17 years of age. It was hilarious.
I have been putting some thought into my recently published book and organising some book signings and I am investigating what it would be like to attend a huge mind, body and spirit festival in Melbourne in June 2014. All new to me. I am still feeling my way.
The second draft of my script has been slow going. I think purely because it is all new to me also and I have no one to be a sounding board. It is very interesting though. A thoroughly different format for me to get my head around. I love a challenge. 🙂
My baby has now begun to add to his vocabulary of words. The latest are: yes and no and he is sounding out everyone’s names. It is so cute to watch his little mind tick over. You can almost hear the gears grinding in there. 🙂
There is something to be said for delegation. Especially when you have such a large workload in front of you. I have decided to seek the services of an arts student to help me complete my drawings for my Tarot cards. I have hand drawn all 78 of the graphics myself, but I need someone to pretty them up and make them digital for printing. I would truly appreciate any suggestions here.
I have been sitting here tonight marking tests for my uni students. I have been reflecting on how much I enjoy teaching. I enjoy making the time for my own children. Their laughter fills my heart with joy. My house is what you would call lived in and comfortable. It is never spotless with so many children around. But I would like my memories to be about fun times and not how clean my house was.
I have come to realise that my ability to involve everyone in the day to day family time in my house is precious. Everyone feels valued, as if they belong to a whole. We all contribute to our little tribe. I would not have it any other way. Even simple things like chatting around the dinner table every night is so very important. In this day and age when everything is moving so fast and technology is ever present. Communication – face to face – is an art that must never be lost. We all need to practice our listening skills. We all have a right to be heard. Hey, it has to start somewhere, why not at home? Love and light to all.
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I have been struggling to fit my writing into the daily routine. Any writing that is. By the time you get to the end of the day, it is a struggle to find the motivation. I have two day jobs and three children, a mortgage and a loveable cat. Any parent will tell you that is a heck of a lot of work and responsibility. But I usually find the time. Without your passion for life, it just becomes one long chain of drudgery. I don’t know about you, but that is not what I signed up for. I focus on the joy. My children bring me joy most of the time 🙂 Hey just keeping it real. I love teaching. I love to write. I should make time for that. I do not want to wake up in 20 years and regret my life. Sure, I lead a very busy life and I like it that way. But I also know what is important to me. I will not have any regrets on my death bed. I will look back on my life see that the relationships were important, especially the one with myself. I strive for that connection with my spiritual self, my family and my friends. The material stuff, well you can’t take it with you. Love and light to you all.
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I have lived through a couple of very difficult and stressful days. On the one hand I am very grateful for what I have in life. On the other hand I now realise how precarious it all is. All it takes is for one thing to go wrong and I could find myself out on the street with my children. A very sobering thought. I have worked very hard to build a life for my family. I have a mortgage and I work two jobs to pay for it. It was my choice to take on this responsibility as I wanted my children to have a stable home and not have to move from rental to rental (which we did for years). I went back to night school to upgrade my qualifications so that I could earn better money and I have had physical ailments to deal with. I understand that the universe only gives you what you can handle, but sometimes I do think – enough now please 🙂 Any parent will tell you that you wouldn’t even think twice about taking all of this on for your family. It is what we do. Yes we all have bad days. But I choose to focus on the positive. Bad days pass, they always do. On a lighter note, my little one is starting to speak now. It really is precious to watch these memories. I feel very privileged to be his mother. I wouldn’t swap it for the world. Life is miraculous like that. You can swing from terrible to beautiful so easily, even all in one day. All you have to do is keep your eyes and heart open. Love and light to you all.
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