Here I am, sitting in front of my computer late at night reminiscing. So much has happened over the last year, it is hard to believe it is nearly over. I am in my forties and I have enough life experience under my belt to last three life times. Two of the most important things that I have learned is that love is at the centre of everything that I do, otherwise why am I here? And the other is that love is everything, in other words I have learned not to hold onto anger and resentment. I cannot control what other people think or do. That is something they have to live with. I have learned to let it go. It is not my burden to carry.
You would not believe how much lighter this has made me feel. My family is everything to me and life is too short for the negative. As you get older you realise that you can choose to be surrounded by positive people who lift you up and kick to the kerb those that bring you down. Even if that means family members. It took me a long time to come to this realisation.
No more emotional blackmail, no more manipulation, no more pain. No more stressing about things I have no control over. Yes to focusing on the positive and seeing the old me come back. The real me. The person who is positive, loving, happy and open to life and new experiences. My children are so happy to see the old me again. The one who laughs and smiles often.
There is a light at the end of the tunnel.
Sending love, light and healing to whoever needs it tonight. Share it around I say. The world needs more of that.